So What’s Next?

The project is ending but the story is far from over.  To be honest, I’m relieved. This was a ton of work. I enjoyed the work of course. But I’m also evolving so quickly I seemed to outgrow it before I finished publishing all the episodes. Let me explain with an analogy.  When I first left for my road trip in mexico I brought with me a single fin longboard and two egg shaped mid length board. If you are not familiar with boards, none of these are built for high performance or critical waves. But the more I surfed the more I progressed and I found I wanted a shortboard for more maneuverability. So I traded one of my boards in. But I took way too big of a leap and the board was too hard to ride. So I traded that board in for something in the middle. But then I started surfing different types of waves, bigger and more hollow waves. That called for a gun surfboard. But then I got sick of being beat up all the time so went to surf some point break. I needed a fish surfboard there. My quiver of boards was constantly changing, two steps forward, then one step back. As I progressed or my circumstances changed I constantly needed to change equipment.  And now I’ve both progressed and changed. What I see is still a lot of ego and immaturity in my writing. And I think any writer or creator would say the same about their earlier work. But it … Keep ReadingSo What’s Next?

Stress and Stuff

People keep asking me how I afford what I’m doing, but I’m asking the same question of them.
People keep saying, “It must be nice not to have to spend the majority of your day working.” And I just reply, “It must be nice to own a toaster and a nativity set.” … Keep ReadingStress and Stuff

What’s the Point of Surfing Heavy Waves?

Imagine a lifetime of refusal to let go, refusal to suffer loss. Do we ever experience the depths of soul connection living this way? Do we ever soar?  Or do we just settle for safe subject like the annoying boss and the bank account. Do we come home to the safety of mediocrity day after day only to wake up one day in a hospital bed facing the end of our lives and releasing we’ve never really lived? We guarded our hearts against loss, and we missed out on love, real love. I risk, because I want to experience the grandness of it all. … Keep ReadingWhat’s the Point of Surfing Heavy Waves?

Culture Shock in San Diego

Being in San Diego has been a bit trippy
Being outside of all of this for a while has given me a fresh perspective.
I walked through the open air market in Ocean Beach last week, literally speechless. Everyone has their identity. They pay good money to maintain their identity. Surfer, punk, yoga girl, yuppy housewife, everyone has a look. Their look says a lot about what they are into, and that is the point. … Keep ReadingCulture Shock in San Diego